Growing up I was given all the necessities that I needed. But i knew at a young age that I had something to prove to my self. I never had much and never have I asked for help when I needed it. It’s just my personality head strong, motivated by the desire to work for what I want in life and to set goals and make sure I fallow through. Everyone one has Der story & this Is mines. Im a working aspiring chef who works six days and 10 hour shifts & get one day off , I dont like coming home to hear someone’s lip because I didn’t satisfied Der needs and wants . I just dont need it. Just realize I’m not a child anymore I’m mature and have my own life to live! I refused to depend on you I got to much pride and to much goals for me to go der . But see I’m
Thankful for what you’ve done just understand if I need something from you I’ll ask you tell then let me stand on my own two feet and work towards a better life for myself. Goodnight over it 86 .

It’s always hard letting go of someone so amazing but it’s something you have to do so u can grow and be a better person .

As I toss and turn my body cant seem to fall asleep because my mind is on Jimmy Schmidt’s another celebrity chef that I get might be able to put under my resume. This man is known throughout the culinary industry. I’m excited and I can honestly say that this might just be the biggest break I need in my career . I have narrowed down the four places that I have been asked to work four and I decided on two place . If i get to work with Morgans owned by Jimmy Schmidt’s would be my primary job and my second job would be 3rd Corner Wine & Bistro would be my 2nd job. I’m a young motivated chef inspired by food and ready to work towards the next lvl. I can honestly say it feels damn good. I found who I could become and what I’m capable of doing through my spiritual guidance given by the lord ,god is always good & I’ve accepted change because honestly ” Change to want to improve & strive for something better just to be happy , change is good ” -Anthony John Mejia
Good morning, good afternoon & goodnight.

Why is it that your the only one I can seem to think about. I miss you like everyday. it’s hard for me to think that maybe we will never be more than what we are . I thought things would get better in time .But what are we?
Deep inside I know that I cant fully be your friend because I have feelings for you .

Its so hard to put these feelings aside and I know that your trying to do you and live the single life . Your young and have been working hard everyday and seem to still give time to me when you can . I love that about you . I gotten to know who you are and I feel sometimes we loose each other. If I could tell you that I miss you always I would .

Your the first girl I cared about In a long time . You changed me more than words could explain. I’m not the man I used to be after knowing someone like you . You inspired me to be better and I’m no where to be perfect but I feel you accepted me for me. They say love isn’t perfect and I’m confident to say that you are my 1st love.

When I would give you roses and surprise you with food sigh.

Never knew what love was but you seemed to show me what love could do and damn it’s a good feeling when it’s good and a bad feeling when it gets bad . Through our ups and down we seem to come back together damn sigh did I just really say that . Lately your all that I been thinking of . In my heart you will stay for eternity because I know I’ll never forget my first love.

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So it begins tale of two hearts in this love dance we call friendship with feelings. First off what have I gotten mySelf into , a girl who’s not ready to be with you will put you in the friend zone no matter what . Or she’s not interested. You don’t want to be in the situation that I’m in its stupid . Yet here I stand like a fool in hopes of one day she realize she has someone who honest to god just doesn’t see her as another girl.

We took a stroll down a windy road with twist and turns that leave you with a breath taking view. Der we stood gazed upon bright lights & underneath sparkling stars. Yet I know to hold back my feelings as you say the words every guy doesn’t want to here , we should stay friends. Crushing blow to the heart yet was expected from our friendship that we started. Hard to see at first but where do I stand and what should I do .

Shes winning the battle yet I’m up against someone who I fully respect, care about is the girl that I want nothing more to be with. Shes 1st thing I think about and last person on my mind this dance we started has been dancing far too long for me to just stop and let things go. Should I stop the dance take a break and Jump back to it when she’s ready ? But question is when are you ready ? Will you and I ever be ready ? Answer to the question is no you will never be ready unless you give it a try. So dance till we come to a stop when will that be and when will this battle end . Or is this an on going battle that we both take upon as nothing more but what could’ve been .

Happy Birthday Nanay !

“When you really want it you’ll get it . ”

This has been an on going goal for me staying fit and eating right and getting as much rest as I can. Sad to say I’m burnt out pulling two jobs and working all day plus having energy to workout was fun while it lasted but now I gotta slow it down. I don’t know how often I’ll get to hit the gym but I gotta make sure that I still stay fit an eat right . I’m focusing on my career and I’ve lost sigh of that. If I could get this body to where it is now from where i started 155 24.7 percent body fat and now I’m 143 8.1 % body fat. I need to stay focus and I will . I’m not looking for a gf but if it happens to come along my way then why not. I’m tired of waiting I just want it to come already. Relationship get harder as u get older. I found my passion in my career again nd I missed this feeling .

Its funny as you get older your faced with more responsibilities that you have to face and wonder how you will face them . I wasnt feeling myself lately because my mind has made me think of this move that I was suppose to make but i decision to stay. Im happy with only time will tell if i made the right one.  I realize that being here on this earth i was made for something great. 

I may not know what lies ahead but im certain that ill keep my mind focus and head towards the right direction. Only i can take full control of my future and hope that everything works out for the best. In the end im left with the decision i make. In the few days i had rethinking about my future i learned a lot about myself and who i am . Or in dating terms ” the bagged ” Everyone has one even if you dont know it . 

CARING.Its what people have  that make them who they are and how they deal with relationships. It will come out when you are getting to know someone and its up to you if your willing  to help them with the bagged .  You tend to der needs and let them know your der  for them no matter what , u try to be the good guy so that she sees that ders still possibility that a good guy still der and that its right in front of her face. 

Sensitive. When you say you are going to call back call back , or when someone texts u text them back dont make them wonder why you havent called them or text them back . But i understand your busy or its just part of the game we all play to gain more ground control. This could either help you out or make matters worse but its worth a try to see where u guys are really at . 

Impulsive. Moving is a scary thing to do when your so comfortable at a certain location. It can also help you grow as a person or make you regret certain things because you will gain and loose something in the same time and people may have your support but wont really be der for you. I made my decision on moving based on what was going on in my life and wasnt really thinking things through. Will i regret this move i wont know until life hits me right in the face and see where i am at in a couple of months. But at the same time im happy that i made this decision and all i can do now is put everything into play. 

I am no where perfect but damn i know that i am a good man and will eventually get to where i see myself with hard work and dedication i will get der.  Things will eventually fall into place and when that time comes its going to be bitter sweet